Vlog

Since I will be spending winter in KL, I have a few good things planned out.

One of them includes a vlog (video blog). What is it going to be about? It's still under planning and construction, so I'd rather not reveal that bit yet.

Will do, once it's up and running.

xx

Gemuruh.

Today marks the day before the exam!

So buck up, buck up, memorize and all that.

KL awaits soon, so it can't be that bad :D

Girls.

To all girls that I love with all my heart.

If you know how much you are worth, you would not be too hurt by actions that are deemed unfair to you. If you know how much you are worth, you would not justify the purity of your heart, because you don't need to. If you know how much you are worth, you don't need to feed a man's ego by letting him walk over you. If you know how much you are worth, you don't stay in an unhealthy relationship just because you are in love. If you know how much you are worth, you would know in an instant that you deserve the best.

I know how much you are worth, and I hope you do too.

Never be afraid to let go. That might just be the best decision you've ever made for yourself. And if ever those feelings rush back to you, remember that there have been thousands of women who've died in fighting for women's rights, and they won't be too proud to know that what they have been fighting for were in vain.

I'm not asking you to hate men. I'm asking you to at least love the right one.

Ace

The way you wow-ed me

The way you wow-ed me

They just scream

"Are you for real"?

Are those lips designed to

complicate things that already

radiate?

The way you wow-ed me

Oh wow.

Mind you, I've got a piece of mind,

Two in fact, if they were kind.

Don't trick them,

They know,

How you wow-ed me

They don't say let's go

Refrain, refrain, retract

An act, a very lousy act

Where are the lukewarm feelings?

The way you wow-ed me

You should be ashamed

I'd rather a book

Than a diamond ring

A book of character says much more

I'd flipped through it, I would adore

As this mind goes through one by one,

I'd smile and know that this is it

The one who wow-ed me with limp bizkit

As dorky as one would appreciate

The sentiments that can commemorate

A heart so pure, you'd never know

You'd never know how you wow-ed me

And there I'd stand with a card in hand

An ace of spade, under no pretence

I'd flip it across the road to you

I hope I've wow-ed you

The way you wow-ed me

Still without knowing,

The swirling movements my feet are in

Only with a simple smile of a care so deep

You'd know I am yours for keeps.

India

I never thought I'd say this, but I really want to visit India again. The food is fabulous - how can you say no when every rice dish comes with yoghurt and chutney? The atmosphere is divine - if you block your sight from people who pee on walls, there is an amazing vibe that India could offer. Yes, the traffic is ridiculous, but did you know that they rarely get involve in accidents? Indians are the most amazing drivers! (apart from penangites! hehe) Also, there are hundreds of those flea markets for you to buy scarfs and materials from, and they don't even compare to the ones you buy in white countries (obviously), and not to mention, a whole lot cheaper!

When I visited Delhi in 2004, I was amazed at how many homeless people there is. If you think you're unfortunate, please have a look at the streets of Delhi where you have a family of five, living in a small tent, with a small place they make do as a kitchen, where if you're in a car on a main road, you could actually see them vividly, sleeping, eating, washing and mentanak nasi. That is how poor they are. It's sad to say, but even these ones are considered the lucky ones. There are worse, trust me.

When in Agra, on the way to the Taj Mahal, it's amazing how you have these kids, practically begging you for money, but in return, they can dance and do wonderful things to entertain you. There was this girl, roughly around the age of 5, who did all sorts of gymnastics along the side of the road, just for a penny or two.

As for the Taj Mahal, the architecture was so superb as you would have imagined. What I found most fascinating was how you can't see the Taj Mahal from outside, considering it is huge. It's only after you've entered some sort of entrance, would you be able to see the Taj Mahal from a distance. It's made from all these semi precious stones which shine when sun hits. It was built that way so that when light reflects, the Taj Mahal will look more radiant and of course, they can save on electricity ;P

As for Delhi Belly, never, ever, drink their tap water or any of their water, if they're not bottled. Chances are you might get the case of Delhi Belly (food poisoning). When we went there, 4 out of 9 of us were inflicted by the Delhi Belly. So always carry a mineral/bottled water with you, even for brushing your teeth. Hey, you can never be too sure, right?

The food, oh my. I'm sorry, I just seem to recall the food more than anything when India is concerned. You get the best mango chutney, the best yoghurt and the basmathi and chicken tikka, everything is splendid. I am a big big fan of Indian food so India was heaven for me. The one thing I like about Indian food is that you don't need to eat much of it as the content of it, can easily make you full, just after a small serve or two.

As for the desserts, a big no. I'm not really a big fan of Gulab Jamun (this really really sweet indian delicacy) or Ice cream cengkih and other weird Indian desserts. There's only one which I love and that is the coconut candy. It's usually pink/red in color and covered with coconut sprinkles, and it taste so good. Of course, really really fattening, but who cares :)

India was a truly memorable trip for my family and I, because that was the last trip we all took as a family before my late grandfather passed away a year after. His last wish was to visit Hydrabad, but we never really got to that, as he got really sick. Oh, and because my ancestors were from India, visiting India felt like a homecoming somewhat.

Okay, it's back to studying for me. How. Dreadful. xx

PS: consider the bus ride, if you're planning on traveling within India. On our way to Agra from Delhi, we came across a guy playing the flute with a pet snake and a guy with a pet sun bear on a leash! It was so amazing and shocking at the same time. Imagine poking your head out of the bus, and there it is: a bear right next to your face! haha. Okay, now, really back to studying.

Composure.

Bersusah susah dahulu, bersenang senang kemudian.

It seems as though I have stopped applying that since 2002.

Time to start tracing back those steps that I missed. Where's the elevator? Oh, walking.

She rambles on and on about nothing.

Thinking about starting work (InsyaAllah) next year makes me both excited and nervous at the same time. I know for one that I'm really not the type that can handle a 9-5 job, as much as I want to. Though, beggar can't be choosers, kan? There is a high possibility that I might end up with a 9-5 job, hating and loving it at the same time. I have been a student for 6 years and it's not funny. Did a degree halfway and decided to change to another. So much so that I am so comfortable living a student life, where everything is fine and dandy (to a certain extent). However, we all need to move up to another phase and eventually realize that you owe yourself something bigger and better.

There are so many things that I want to do beforehand. I want to travel the world, I want to gain more experiences, I want to be able to have all the time in the world to read as many books, I want to be able to go hiking every weekend, I want to sit at home and sew bags and clothing items, I want to do so many things before I start working.

And I know once I start working, I'd have so little time to myself that I might just spend my weekends at home, watching television and surfing the net.

Life is fair. If I had not done architecture for three years, I might've been able to take a year off and do all these things, but as they say, you don't always get what you want. I'm just hoping that I'd still get to retain bits and pieces of my hobbies and interests when I start working, and still be able to indulge in them.

I'm not saying that working people are boring or that they have no life. I'm saying that sometimes they are not being given the extra time to indulge in themselves because they are working so hard to plan for the future.

So, yes. That's what I need to do. From now on, I need a plan. I need to plan my life straight from I'm 25-50. I don't want to be stuck in a job because I have to and not knowing why I'm there. I don't want to just be waking up at 9 and coming back at 5, without knowing what my next step is going to be. We all have a choice and even though I'm slightly late to be realizing this, I know I still have a choice of what I want to do with my life.

I shall not give in to the rat race. I just want to earn enough for myself (and for my family, that comes a lot later) and enjoy the other things in life. But I will promise that I will do my best in what I venture to do, but to not lose focus of what I want to achieve. And that is to be happy and content.